Friday, April 2, 2010

Hanging up my chalks!

I started teaching SSC kids English in 2007. I wasn’t supposed to do that. But I did like always, going against popular opinion!

Amma was strongly against my decision to spend weekends with students instead of studying. She, herself being a teacher in Kannada medium, was well aware of its impediments. She was into teaching “field” as she never considered it a “business”. To her, it was a way of saying thanks to her parents who gifted her education. Her argument was that one person from family was enough for the deed. Even my dad’s dad was a primary school teacher and had the most beautiful handwriting of all. At least my dad says so.

Teaching is a noble job. It brings with it this magnanimous attitude that is remarkably different from anything else you do in life. Connecting with kids, hearing their side of confusion, maintaining discipline and conversation on the same line are some of the facets that inject adrenaline on an otherwise dull morning.

Fastforward to 2010, I’ve decided I won’t be teaching anymore. No more sleepless weekends for me. I guess I’ve grown out of this stupid idea of “changing the world” with education. It’s not a worthy fight. Honestly. Every time I came back home, I had pictures of those kids in my mind who never spoke or were too mischievous to even care. It was always good apples and bad apples. On a lighter note, I’m tired of selling false dreams to these students for they’ll learn the way of life sooner or later and they’ll know that it isn’t going to be an easy ride either!

I was the youngest staff member too everywhere I went, be it classes, community school or small-time tuitions. And I’m happy I’m still young while I’m getting away from it to explore unseen avenues like learn French or violin or whatever. Teaching was the best thing I ever did in my godforsaken pale life and like they say, “Once a former teacher, always a former teacher!”

7 comments:

Anuradha Khanna Pentapalli said...

nice post... i gave tuitions during my college vacations...it's a tough task and i can connect with what you say. i still struggle to decide if i shd get into teaching later in my life

lost_scotoma said...

So I have a fellow-teacher-friend in you.. kids are wonderful... in fact, I just got a call from my former student asking me why am I leaving the classes and I couldn't reply why.. just said that I'm not getting enough time for other stuff... the only thing I hate about leaving this thing is the connect with kids will be sorely missed later!

Hwoarang said...

firstly to introduce myself m one of d students of this blogger and i wud like every1 to know that Sunil gave me a new vision about teaching teachers and changed my opinion dat teachers suck he was my favorite teacher and coz of him i gave more interests in studying and yes his lectures did contain some social awareness but i guess dat wat every teacher shud do in dis sin prone world
WE WILL MISS U!!

lost_scotoma said...

Hey Hwoarang.... I still can't figure out who you are and i must say I'm proud to have taught you.. but am mighty humbled too by what you said.. thanks a lot. :)

Hwoarang said...

its mustafa :-D

lost_scotoma said...

Ah! I should have guessed this one! Thanks again! :)

Imagination said...

Proud moment for you, Shakti. Hardly any teacher gets to hear such good words for himself/herself from students. :)